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What does it feel like to be me?

Honestly, I have no idea.

In examining this issue closely I wonder if the question itself is even valid. If I were to actually FEEL my own self, it would be implying a duality that negates the entire experience.

For example if I were to come to believe that it feels peaceful to be me, there are actually two things occurring. There is the peaceful feeling, and there is the noticing of that peaceful feeling. Which one is me? Now I could then move on and say that I am the noticer. But again there are two things happening. There is the noticing, and then there is the awareness of the noticer.So which one of those is me? On and on and on it goes.

Every experience requires a duality. In the quest for the true self our attention is always placed on the flavor of the experience. We want to EXPERIENCE our true selves. We want to somehow watch it from afar, see that it is beautiful, and then take solace in that beauty. We want that beauty to be eternal and never leave us. My spiritual journey is packed with attempts at searching for the perfect experience that is infinite and blissful.

But now knowing that no experience will ever show me my true self where does that leave me. It is pointless, or even insane, to keep searching for bliss, or joy, or peace. I know these only as different kinds of experiences. On the flip side it is also pointless to avoid those undesirable experiences such as fear, shame, and guilt. These must also be irrelevant and not indicative of WHO I am.

My true self is not something I can run toward or run away from. I can’t find it. I can’t avoid it. I can’t use words to describe it. It is not a song or a painting. It is not love or hate. It is not happiness or sadness. I am left with nothing but a blank space.

There is no next step. There is nothing to do to finally get it.

* I was about to write that I don’t need any time but i felt a huge panic attack sweep over me. On a deeper level I know this means I am on to something but the feeling is quite overwhelming. Like I am about to pass out at a moments notice and maybe not wake up again. Perhaps that is enough for one day 🙂 

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Be still and know this eternal Truth: Consciousness – true Love – is the Supreme Force

Below is a link to wonderful poem by Gautam Sachdeva called “The World’s Best Astrologer”. Gautam is a former student of guru Ramesh Balsekar who was himself a student of Nisargadatta Maharaj. Through his YouTube channel here Gautam explains many of Ramesh’s most important teachings with extreme clarity. It is definitely worth your time. Enjoy the poem below.

The World’s Best Astrologer

The 7 Best Online Resources For Spiritual Growth

Since I have begun my spiritual journey I have come across a number of amazing online resources that have helped me tremendously in my spiritual development. Below I have listed the best ones out there. Please do check each and every one of them out for yourself.

Shots of Awe – This is a YouTube channel run by Jason Silva who develops these wonderful videos on a bi-weekly basis. The primary theme of his videos is, unsurprisingly, Awe. Experiencing awe is an amazing way of turning off your brain and letting your soul seep in. He has about 40 videos. Start with the one below and go from there.

Gautam Sachdeva – Gautam may be a lesser known spiritual teacher in the western part of the world but I look forward to watching every video he posts. My favourite is this one on non-attachment. His primary teacher was Ramesh Balsekar but he has also spent time with Nisargadatta’s translator offering some powerful insights on his teachings. Please check out and subscribe to his YouTube channel so you don’t miss anything!

Eckhart Tolle on YouTube – Perhaps the most relatable spiritual teacher in the world Eckhart Tolle led me into the spiritual realm. He holds regular retreats and then posts little snippets online free of charge. He used to host links to videos on his website but now his YouTube channel is the best source. However, for a modest fee on his website you can gain access to years of powerful spiritual teachings.

Mooji – I can not stress enough how amazing Mooji is as a spiritual teacher. He often says he teaches the lazy mans way to enlightenment. He posts loads of content and has a backlog of over 500 videos on his channel. Please check him out. You will not regret it.

Super Soul Sunday – Whether or not you are an Oprah fan (I am) she has given the spiritual movement a lot of mainstream credibility. The Twitter account linked above is a great avenue for connecting with your favourite spiritual teacher. Her initial sessions with Eckhart Tolle was watched online by millions worldwide. She is actually redoing those classes with Eckhart every sunday. Check out that Youtube playlist here.

Tragedy and Hope – This YouTube channel is how I discovered the brilliant lectures of Alan Watts. Whomever runs this channel combines his teachings set to a backdrop of amazing footage and music to maximize the impact. My absolute favourite is the one below:

The Honest Guys – This is a guided meditation/relaxation channel. At first the accent in the meditations can be a little distracting. But once you’re over that they are actually quite brilliant. The relaxation sounds are excellent as well. Here’s one of my favourites:

There they are! Please let me know if you have other ones that I would enjoy.

Cheers!

Bonus Resource – This is my own collection of spiritual videos from all of these sources and more that I have posted on my blog. Please enjoy!